Week Three DONE

Ok lets have a drum roll please.... I haven't weighed myself in one week and now, three weeks into it......

I HAVE LOST 10 LBS!!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!

I am so ridiculously excited. This past week has been kinda stressful for me so all week I had been worrying about how well I was (or wasn't) doing. But I did it! My first ten pounds is GONE. The funny thing is is that I don't feel ten pounds lighter... I guess when you are my size, ten lbs doesn't seem like much. I'm just so pumped about it and ready to keep going.

I was especially nervous and kinda disappointed in myself because I took friday as my rest day for the week. However, then Saturday came along when K Love, Jordan and myself took an impromptu road trip down to Sam Houston, Texas to see some friends in Rent and I never worked out. So I have now gone 2 days without a single excercise. Shame on myself, I know. I just had to fess up about it.

SO now I am off to the gym to do my new workout that Silvia gave me and kick my own ass! Hopefully this time I won't vomit :)

btw... I would LOVE some new recipes if anyone has any favorites. (Thank you Hartleigh for those by the way! Love them and you!) I am going to go grocery shopping tonight of tomorrow and I have a goal of cooking dinner at least five times a week this week.

Thanks for the continued support every one. I really couldn't have done it without.

Much Love!

Two Weeks Later...

It's been two weeks now as of yesterday! YAY!!! I am thrilled that I've managed to survive this long. I have to say... this may be the longest I have ever stuck to a diet in my life. I realize two weeks is not a very long time... but this is precisely I am the size I am.

Today was the hardest day of my LIFE. I have tap on tuesdays/thursdays, so usually i just do 30 minutes on the Elliptical. However today I had the brilliant idea of scheduling a workout with Silvia. WORST IDEA EVER. Not only did Tap kick my ass, but right after I had to run to the Huff to meet Silvia. I though tap was hard.... I thew up during my workout. I guess thats a good thing? kinda?

The session was amazing though. I love all the workouts she gave me and they were totally doable. I cant wait to do them again! (Just not right at this moment. Kinda wanna die right now.) She told me to do them just twice a week for now, but once I start getting into the routine, I should try and do it three times. I'm super pumped.

I'm scared to weigh myself. I still feel like I did when I started. I feel like I haven't dropped much weight. I mean some things are fitting easier, like I talked about a in my last post (I think), but I still feel as if not much has really changed. Hopefully it's just in my head and I am losing weight. It's just slow! I guess only time will tell, right?

Day 12 (i think..)

Happy friday! ugh thank the LORD it's the weekend. I've needed it real bad.

Everything has been going so well for me. Someone asked me the other day about how I felt now with this new lifestyle change. I said that I didnt really feel any different physically. I mean I was still excited, but I just still was not really feeling or looking any different. I was just wanting results and of course, it's just too soon. BUT today was different for me. I noticed some things about myself in this new life. I happened to pass a mirror and I caught my profile out of the corner of my eye. Usually that makes me cringe because that is when I feel I look the fattest, my profile. However, I saw my profile and I DIDNT cringe! I mean this only just skims the surface and I have so far to go, but I was still really excited. My clothes are starting to fit looser and I just feel so much better about myself. Even eating better is geting more in my head and my body. I am thinking less about how well I've eaten and worrying so much about it, and beginning to just live.

Don't get me wrong though, I am not going to relax into this. I still have a whole lot of drive in me and when a shirt starts to button a little easier, that just motivates me the more.

In three weeks I have Assessments for the OU Musical Theatre faculty. In this, we have to get up in front of them and sing a 3 minute song that fits our "type". Something we could go audition for and book, today. Something we could play right now. It was unreal how hard It was for me to pick a role I am perfect for right now. I mean I could find some, but I just feel like there are so many roles out there that I could totally play, but just don't physically look the part. This got me down a little. It made me realize that, with this weight on me, it's keeping me from so many potential roles that are MY AGE. I am NOT Nathan Lane. He is a 40 something-year-old fat man. I am more than half his age. I cant play that right now!? But I cant play roles my age either. So I'm thinking, "shit. I gotta lose weight."

Things like this depress me, but then they end up just making me that much stronger in the long run.

Day Nine

Ugh. I feel like it's day 15253. Not really I'm just being dramatic because it's been a long week... and it's only tuesday. But I still feel good. I have been having more weak moments recently, though. Nothing huge, it's just I could be doing better. Like today I ate at Chipotle for dinner and consumed 690 calories in one sitting. Terrible. BUT that is the last thing I am eating today so I am still within my 1500-1700 calorie range. I just keep putting off going to the grocery because I just have NO money. Im so broke right now. Being broke when on this new lifestyle change... not easy.

My sister called the other day and said I should get a scale for my food. She said that way I can weigh my meats and such and have a much more accurate calorie count. So as soon I am less broke. Im gettin' one. Along with some groceries.

I am still struggling with late night snacking, though. I think that is my worst enemy. I hate it. I find I have to just get out of the house so I stop snacking. It's horrible. Anyone have like a special thing they do to help them, cause I got nothin. I don't want to go all day doing great, then in three bites, ruin it all.

OH I had my session with my personal trainer yesterday!!! She was so great. Her name is Silvia and I love her. We didn't do much workout wise, just a series of a bunch of tests. Nothing more embarrassing than a BMI, i'll tell ya that right now...
I'm gonna meet with her again next week and get some workouts together. I pumped!

Off to memorize some Shakespeare. kill me.

Week One DOWN!

So as of today, I have been going strong for a week now. Sadly, I feel like its been a whole lot longer though... Not to say I'm not having a good experience, it's just moving slowly. I think my problem lies in the fact that all the "diets" i've done in the past two years have been really jank "diets" like The Hollywood diet or the Anorexia diet.... I would lose tons of weight in like three days. (The Hollywood diet made me lose 9 lbs in 3 days... healthy? I think not.) Besides I just gained all that weight right back and then added on some more! ugh fml.

But I weighed myself tonight after a week of not doing it. I was a little disheartened at first but then I though, "hey, if I want to lose two lbs a week at least... then I'm doing great!"

After week 1, I weigh 230

Not too shabby eh? I think I can even be working harder too. I usually just do 30 minutes a day on the Elliptical, but today Mack and I did 40! AND it wasn't all that bad! So I'm still going strong, world.

Next step.... start cooking at home.

Oh and sparkpeople.com is changing my life. If you have an iphone, get it NOW. Thanks everyone that suggested it!

PERSONAL TRAINER TOMORROW!!! AHHH WISH ME LUCK!!! it's gonna kick my fat ass....

G'night! Off to play late night volleyball!

Day Four (and an awesome one at that)

So I had a rough day yesterday.... but if you go back to the last post you will read that I said I was going to kick ass today. weeeell I did. I ROCKED today! I ate really well and kept track of calories and everything.

Also, tap got cancelled and instead of being a lazy bum... I went with Chelsea to swim at the University pool. It was hard has hell but I did it. Oh and we swam next to Bob Stoops. He said we had good form (.... not really.... but I know he thought it).

Then tonight I went to the Gym with Mackenzie. I did 30 minutes on the elliptical, 10 minutes on arms, and about a minute and a half on abs..... they were sore.

Not to have an excuse for not working out yesterday and eating less than great, but when Sky got home from rehearsal last night I made him do abs with me. We call it "Taurean Abs" because this amazingly buff guy Sky worked with named Taurean taught it to him. It's intense and so great. I love it. I'll break it down soon and yall can try it at home. It's really great with music :)

I HAVE to start cooking, though. Eating out just scares me even though I know I can eat healthy at some places. I just don't want to slip. I ate subway for dinner. So i'm good.

Night!

Day Three

So today was a strange day. I had a huge paper due that I put off forever that was due by midnight tonight. I submitted It by 11:59. Cutting it close a bit? Absolutely. But I felt good about today.... kinda. I feel weird because I drank tonight. I think of all things... this might be the hardest part. Learning how to drink on my "lifestyle change". I went over to a friends house and ate a bunch of crackers and hummus. I don't 100% regret that choice because I did not eat very many calories before I went.

Here's what I ate prior to the get-together:

2 (100 calorie) breakfast bars
a char-grilled chick-filet sanwich (410)
and a chicken brest

TOTAL - around 800 calories

not very much which i KNOW is bad. BUT I think I definitely reached my gaol with the cocktails and crackers.

ready for the kicker???....

I DIDNT WORK OUT TODAY!!! AHHHH!!! Im so upset about it. Im on day three and already I dropped the ball! In fact... I may go run now. No, I had one too many cocktails I think...

So tomorrow, instead of running for 30 minutes... I'm gonna workout AND swim. Our gym has an indoor pool and I have needed excuse to do it so... when better that now, right? But YELL AT ME! I EFFED UP!!!! I feel like crap for not working out.... ugh

Tomorrow Im kickin ass and takin names, yall! Im gonna be better. I am doing this for ME. As for tonight, Im gonna do some crunches with Chris then call it a night. Its something right?

Day TWO (But kinda one...)

WOW. I don't even know how else to say it. I am so shocked and just thrilled about how many people have already sent me support and suggestions. I have to say... it's a lot to retain, but I am going to try. I mean I already took some of the comments and ran with them. J Ho... I got a personal trainer today at the gym and I'm super pumped/ terrified. THANK YOU THANK THANK YOU!!! This is exactly the kind of feedback I was hoping for. So dont get bored with me! haha keep it up guys! I love you all dearly.

The strange thing is is that I thought this first week would be the easiest.... but I'm only on day two and the gym kicked me ASS today. I ran on the Elliptical for 30 minutes and the last five minutes I thought were going to be the death of me. Ugh it was terrible. BUT FEAR NOT. I am still not scared. I know it's going to hurt. Especially now when I am the most out of shape I have ever been in.

Now a lot of the comments yesterday said that my goals were a bit off perhaps. Thank you for telling me but honestly... I have no way of knowing how to properly set a goal for myself. So I kinda just took a stab in the dark. Any thoughts?

Today at dinner Emily ordered chips and artichoke dip.... and i didn't eat a single ONE!!! .....just about killed me. I had a chicken salad with like a tablespoon of dressing. proud? I was.

ps, did anyone notice that i named my web adress ryanlosing S weight.blogspot.com? Where the dump did that "S" come from. Damn. I dont know if i should even fix that....


So again,,, thank you all so very much and keep on following me! These first two weeks are crucial . I got this.

DAY ONE!!!!!

Well I guess I should start by saying hello to the world of blogging. The last time I blogged was probably when I was sixteen on Xanga crying about how no one loves me (with gay undertones of course). So here I am! Pumped and ready to start getting my life in order.

The past few months have really opened my eyes about how being out of shape affects my success as an actor. I spent every weekend for a month in a row traveling all over the country, auditioning for theaters to get ANY job. I guess I was maybe a little cocky in that I thought FOR SURE I just had to get something from all this work. I was in for a rude awakening. Don't get me wrong though... I am not saying that my weight is the only reason I can't get cast, but I know it plays a huge role.

So here I go!!! My goal with this blog is to have my friends and family (and possible followers? maybe? could be fun?) send words of encouragement, tips, suggestions, anything to help me reach my goal and be the best performer I can be.

Here's the big moment. My starting weight. After I tell you this, that is motivation enough for at least the first 10 pounds or so....

but first....

1st Goal: (May 5 - 1 Month) - 210 lbs

2nd Goal: (June 5 - 2 Months) - 199 lbs

Starting Weight - 234 lbs (yikes)

So that's it. Send me some positive energy and words of encouragement if you can, because I am ready to prove to the world that I CAN do this.